Mages to the rescue?

Could a ‘collective’ of Mages and assorted occultists, acting in concert, save the world?

In a word, no.

No one can. And there’s nothing about understanding the tangled and often deliberately dark and obscure corners of what is called ‘metaphysics’ that makes those of us who practice some flavor of magic any more able to turn this world and its people around than anyone else.

I’ve studied groups  who have tried- many groups. Some banded together under the loosely defined boundaries of the “New Age” back in the 80s, which sprang up from the ashes of  consciousness movements and cults of the WW II generations, which emerged from the failed attempts of the late 19th and early 20th Centuries. All of them- from the Theosophists, the Spiritualists, the Gnostics, the Thelemites, the Rosicrucians, the practitioners of EK, the various permutations of the Golden Dawn, and even the newer reconstructions of various indigenous faiths of Europe- have attempted to create a way to solve this problem- and failed. Some failed disastrously. Others staggered into the realm of religion, and stayed. And still others, particularly those aligned with New Age beliefs, priced themselves into the realms of lunacy- becoming an expensive refuge for people with unfounded beliefs and money to burn. Charlatans flocked into its ill-defined ranks. Cults sprang up like mushrooms after a rainstorm. Many still exist- with carefully polished websites and expensive seminars.

Occultism and religion aren’t the answer. Science might be- if it isn’t smothered and extinguished by True Believing politicians who are hoping that Jesus will come and pull us out of this wretched place we’ve created. Thing is, if they did return, Jesus/ JHVH-1/ [insert deity here] would take one look at the wreckage we’ve made of our only home, and wipe us off the face of it.

We are slowly smothering our world in a blanket of willful ignorance- in the guise of CO2- carbon dioxide. Its levels are climbing, and are showing no sign of moderating. We pour more garbage into our oceans, atmosphere, and land, and bring far more people into the world than the lands can truly sustain. We’re destroying ourselves with our own pride, hubris, and ignorance- some of it willfully created by entities we permit to exist. People who point this out are quickly silenced or extinguished.

There is no magical solution. We have to be the people who will rescue us- starting with ourselves, our families, and our communities. We have to stand up and shed light on the darker corners of our world, clean up our mess, and try to repair what we’ve damaged.

I do my own quiet thing. I do not desire students, admiration, or attention beyond a carefully curated circle of like-minded but diverse peers. While I’ve painted a bleak picture in the paragraphs above, I also believe that small beneficial changes, small ideas and actions, small nudges in the memetic zeitgeist can have huge effects, if properly seeded and propagated.  This isn’t useless ‘think good thoughts’ blather, it’s a ‘do good things’ directive. A myriad of small changes of action can shift the Current of events, leading to a change in the Pattern of outcome.

That’s not magic, people. It’s applied elbow grease.

November 15, 2014 at 10:42 am Leave a comment

A Veteran’s Journey

Today is Veterans Day. The radio, TV and Internet are chock full of stories about combat veterans, memories of those who were killed in combat, or while serving. It almost seems like this day, which originally marked the end of World War 1, gets confused and muddled with Memorial Day, which is meant to remember those service people who have died. I do not mean to trivialize those losses, but to instead clarify that today should be devoted to those veterans who are alive. Veterans like me. I am a veteran of the Cold War and Desert Storm. I enlisted in the US Air Force right out of high school, a few years after Vietnam ended, and was given about a year’s pay and shown the door right after Desert Storm. I honorably served 13 years- eight of them overseas.

As time passes, my generation is finding itself increasingly overshadowed on two sides- on one, by the Vietnam generation, and on the other, by the men and women who served- and are still serving- in the longest conflict our nation has ever engaged in. The Cold War generation of veterans is probably the largest group of veterans outside the Enduring Freedom cohort, but, like the generation that served between World Wars 1 and 2, we’re largely overlooked.

That’s the breaks. I saw 3AM many, many times while I served, allowing the rest of the world to sleep well while we jousted with the Russians, playing radio and radar games. They had a radar that we called the ‘woodpecker’ because of its rapid pulses, that bled onto our orderwires when they cranked it up on those long nights, in an attempt to jam us. We’d jam them back- sometimes literally, piping mixtapes full of music over the sidebands and channels we knew they monitored. They got a nice variety- pop, rock, metal, euro-disco. I sometimes wondered if they didn’t try to jam us just to get us to crank out the jams. Those were my military memories- long nights on swing or mid-shift, maintaining various communications nodes, sometimes in the middle of nowhere.

Those long nights in central Europe and the UK took their toll. I developed a deep and debilitating depression, which plagued me like a growing millstone around my soul. It leached away any ambition, eroded my capacity to learn, and utterly flattened my life. Towards the end of my service, it was extremely difficult for me to both sleep and wake up- and the last year or so of my service plays back in bits and pieces, devoid of color, interspersed with periods of no memory at all. My growing inability to react or cope was taken advantage of by my colleagues, who used it to gaslight me and worsen my illness. They actively sabotaged my work, including my maintenance and supply logs, building up ‘evidence’ that led to my demotion and removal from that field. I actively considered suicide at that point. Losing my rank meant that I had exceeded my high year of tenure, and had to study for and pass the test to regain my rank, or be forced to leave. I barely had the spoons to function, much less study for a major test. I tried- and failed. I was honorably discharged, with a handful of money- and not much else.

I was told that the VA would not help me. I did not get anything more than a cursory physical. I tried, and failed, to get a DOD job at a neighboring base, as I burned through the money that I had been given. I was unable to think coherently- the depression still had me in its grip, and my ability to make rational decisions was compromised. Had I been in a better mental state, I might had gone straight back to the US, instead of futilely trying to find employment in the UK.

A traffic accident was the catalyst that changed all that. I was involved in a multi-car pileup on my way to London to seek permission to stay in the country. My car was totaled. I lost the part-time job that I had at a base 50 miles from my old base. I had to go home. I sold and gave away most of my belongings, and had the rest boxed up and sent to a warehouse in New Jersey. I spent the next 3 weeks couch surfing, waiting for other attempts to find work in the US to manifest. They did not.

Crushed, defeated, demoralized, and profoundly depressed, I returned to the US, and moved back in with my parents. I spent the first 3 months literally unable to function, staying mostly in my room, curled up in a ball of misery. The only thing that got me out of the house were the ‘make-work’ jobs that people on state unemployment were required to take in order to get their checks. One such job found me standing in the middle of I-40, doing some sort of survey. Another had me on a litter crew.

I was still too depressed to truly evaluate my situation, and my parents, my father in particular, did not help. He kept giving me grief, telling me what a sorry loser I was, and how I would never amount to anything, and that I needed to get a boyfriend and move in with him. I combed the papers for jobs- trying and failing to get one at a new Circuit City that was opening. I traded on my minimal experience with PCs to get a job at a printing company that lasted 9 days, and finally got a minimum wage job in the local newspaper’s subscription department. It wasn’t enough for me to be able to live on, much less thrive, but I stuck with it for a year and a half. Then I landed a job at Circuit City- the same store that rejected me 2 years before. My income as well as my self-esteem shot up.

I finally made enough money to afford the rent in a modest duplex apartment. Then Circuit City was sold, and my income collapsed, and I found myself on the bare edge of homelessness again. I saw the handwriting on the wall, and found another job- my current one, and landed it.

Throughout this time, I still struggled with depression and inertia. I’d been told by a colleague that the VA would help me, but my first attempt to contact them in ’96 was disasterous. There was no outreach, no interface, and no real interaction. In fact, I was paged as “Mr” when I was there, and my attempts to register and get a VA card were ignored and rebuffed. I swore that I would not return. A second attempt in ’02 ended the same way, with the interface group- VFW, utterly ignoring me. They later claimed not to have received my paperwork, even though I’d sent it twice. My claims of disability were also rejected.

In ’09, a friend on the internet recommended that I try using Disabled American Veterans as my representative. Suddenly, things started to turn around. I had physical problems that were service related, including PTSD and MST (I was sexually assaulted twice while serving), but those claims were rejected for ‘lack of documentation’. My explanation that the command staff involved refused to document them was met with indifference. No paperwork, no claim. I later learned that this was routine- both on the part of many command staffs, as well as the VA- women’s claims of sexual assault were literally dismissed, not documented and swept under the rug, or turned on them as ‘mental problems’. In fact, many women were routinely sent to be mentally evaluated when they claimed sexual assault, in order to find a way to document their incompatibility with service, and forcibly discharge them. That happened to me- but I was lucky: I was diagnosed with depression, and treated. That landed in my medical records, and that saved me.

With the help of the DAV, I got a minimal claim of disability from the VA- the smallest one- 10%. Then, an audit of my records revealed that I had gotten money when I was discharged- and I had to pay it back. Every penny. My tiny stipend vanished- garnished to pay back that money. I would not see a dime until 2028. The VA giveth, the government taketh away. The DAV appealed my case, and the VA noted that I’d claimed PTSD, and reviewed my records. They boosted up my disability considerably, but the payment is still being completely garnished. As it stands, I won’t see a penny of it until 2016.

I’m still not done with them. I have a physical injury that was also documented, which they either overlooked or ignored- that is giving me increasing difficulty today. With the help of the DAV, I will return to the VA with this claim, and try to obtain my rightful disability payment for it. Any money I get from it will go towards modifying my home to age in place.

I realize that I am one of the lucky ones- a survivor. I was technically homeless for a while, but not profoundly so. I had an incredibly debilitating illness that was invisible to most, and in spite of it, still managed to function- albeit barely. During the depths of that depression, I gained 50 pounds, and developed hoarding problems, mostly due to food insecurity and poverty. During the last few months of my enlistment, and most of the time I remained in the UK, I ate poorly, mostly ramen and ‘toast-chee’ crackers. They were all I could afford. In the US, I’d stock up on food- most of which went to the food bank or was thrown out because of hoarding. I still have to watch myself today, questioning every purchase to make sure I’m not returning to those habits. The depression remains- a constant shadow in my life.

I was lucky. And maybe, in spite of my father’s beliefs, I am worthy. In all the things that happened to me, I did not succumb to drugs, alcohol, or suicide. I did get suckered in by a couple of con artists- people who prey on crushed souls like my own, dangling hope and false love and salvation before us, becoming false friends in order to get close enough to strip us of our money, dignity- even lives. Somehow, there remained a kernel of self-respect and defiance within me- a tiny diamond core that was invincible, imperishable- a fragment of light that refused to surrender to the darkness. That tiny diamond gave me the strength to say no, to push back, to hesitate before taking a wrong turn.

That tiny core of resilience also enabled me to build discipline and routines that helped pull me out of the worst of the depression, and entirely out of poverty. The Universe acts in interesting ways, and when I was functional enough to think coherently and maintain routines, it led me to books and articles that enabled me to dig my way out of poverty, repair my credit, build savings, and finally purchase a home.

Today, I’ve had my current job longer than I served in the military. The time that has passed since those dark days has given me perspective, and put me beyond the shadows cast by that time. For a long time after I got out, I did not want to reveal myself as a veteran. I wanted to get as far away from the military and its satellite services as I could. I chose not to serve in the guard. I got rid of all my uniform items. I kept the plaques and pins, and a folder of paperwork, including orders and one pay slip. Reading it today, I am both appalled and amazed- appalled by the tiny paycheck, and amazed that I managed to survive. My peak pay was $16K while I served. I’m doing much better today. And I am no longer avoidant of my status as a veteran- I even got veterans plates on my vehicle, and I ask about veterans discounts, as well. While I don’t like some entitlement attitudes, in my case, I’ve earned mine. I’ve paid for them dearly- and in some ways, still am.

I have a Dickensian take on my service: It was the best of times, and the worst of times. I have great memories of the places, and some of the people I served with. And I also have some harrowing ones. They weave in and out of each other- a tapestry of light and dark, of delight and horror. The scars remain- but so does the membership in a growing group of people who, no matter their age or sex, have serving their country in common.

I have these thoughts every year on this day- thinking about my service, my struggles with poverty and illness, and my climb out of that pit. I think about the VA, and what I have ahead of me. I still need to joust with them some more- wrestling with their particularly vexing interfaces and active discouragement to obtain what I should have gotten when I was discharged- a proper evaluation, and compensation for my injuries. I think about the sobering statistics for female veterans- 65% of us end up homeless and impoverished. I worry that my own period of relative stability might end, and I will find myself on the street- a bag lady living in a hole in the wall. It’s a recurring nightmare, and a reality for many. I think that if I bothered to enter and win a lottery of means, I’d use some of that to create a trust to assist my female peers.

Happy Veterans Day.

November 11, 2014 at 10:19 am 1 comment

Following “The Chair”

For the past few weeks, I’ve been watching a Starz original series called “The Chair”. Its premise was to follow and film two rookie directors as they created a movie using the same script, budget, and location. It was produced by Chris Moore, who did “Project Greenlight”.

The ‘hook’ for the series was to have the audience vote on the two movies, and award the winning director $250K, which isn’t chump change. Its less prominent, but equally important hook was to promote Pittsburgh as a filmmaking destination. The series is set in Pittsburgh, as are both movies- giving the city a cinematic cameo- especially in the amazing credit sequences- and providing the backdrop- in mid-winter- for both movies.

The fledgling directors selected for this adventure were Anna Martemucci, of the Periods film family, and YouTube star Shane Dawson. Anna went to screenwriting school in New York, Shane worked off-the-cuff creating comedy video shorts in LA. Two radically different people- Shane with a huge, enthusiastic teen audience, and Anna, with a dynamic, supporting family.

Nine episodes (of ten) in, it’s clear that Anna made the better movie, but the odds are that Shane’s monster number of fans will utterly swamp her votes. Both directors made rookie mistakes- Anna had difficulty on the front end accepting the reins of leadership- she was used to working in a very collaborative way with her husband Victor Quinaz and brother in law Phil (who also had a supporting role in the movie). Shane, on the other hand, had his difficulty letting go of the reins of control- he chose to star in it as well as direct it (not easy for even seasoned directors!). And he refused to let anyone else edit his film, refused to take critical notes from his colleagues, or sit in on the audience evaluations. He was used to working on his own.

The end results were as one would expect- a warm, laid-back, cinematic movie from Anna (Hollidaysburg), and a frenetic vulgarity-laced extended-length YouTube video (Not Cool) from Shane. Each movie was unique, but watching both, one can see the bones of the original script behind the two very different visions. Both directors even got final cut- a rarity for first-timers. So, we saw their movies.

That’s what we’re supposed to see when we watch this show- the stories of these two people and their various collisions with the realities of movie making, culminating in the end result- two new movies. Good, fine television in and of itself, and a field day for behind-the-scenes movie fans.

But “The Chair” has some additional surprises for us. In a surprisingly original and meta- move, we’re also seeing the documentary being made of the show itself. A third story, about the creators themselves. Cleverly placed floating credits tell us who is whom, and what role they’re playing. It’s nearly like knocking the fourth wall down to pony-wall height, and letting us watch the watchers. No artifically introduced drama was involved, which is quite a change from usual ‘reality’ fare. There were clearly decisions made in the editing as to what discussions of the documentary crew, the budget, the reactions and interactions of the various producers, and the struggles of the various companies involved be revealed. We even get a memorable scene of the normally laid-back co-producer Zachary Quinto expressing anger and disappointment about one of the films. This takes “The Chair” from mere fly-on-the-wall voyeurism to nearly live television. It’s an edgy and daring step to take, and the people involved in producing it- Chris Moore and “Before The Door”, Zachary Quinto’s production company- did the thing. They hung it out there on the edge, and pushed the envelope. Did they bite off more than they could chew? Could they pull this off? Would they get funding? I found myself on the edge of my own chair wondering what was going to happen next.

I’ll be brutally honest- most TV is boring and predictable as hell for me. I know the tropes, the clichés, the probable plot-twists, the generic characters- as well as any long-time viewer does. So, surprising and engaging me isn’t an easy thing. But here was a story within a story, hiding in plain sight; the story of a newish production company (Before The Door has been around for less than a decade) going through its own School of Hard Knocks, and emerging on the other side with a few scratches and dings- but infinitely wiser and experienced. Having to shepherd two fledgling directors through this process, and dealing with the various surprises and pitfalls along the way- while at the same time tending several other irons that were in their fire -had to be a real stress test for them. But as far as I can tell, they soldiered through, and succeeded in telling a third, just as compelling story.

Because of other commitments, Zachary Quinto and Neal Dodson could not be as available for input during the shooting as they wanted to be. Zach was making “Agent 42″ and Neal was helping director J. C. Chandor put the finishing touches to the forthcoming movie “A Most Violent Year”. So their appearances were more like cameos- showing up briefly on Shane’s set once, and later at the screenings of the rough cuts.

So it fell to the third main member of “Before The Door”, Corey Moosa, to fill in for Zach and Neal, and demonstrate that he was able (and mostly willing) to go the extra mile for Shane’s movie. Shane’s script called for both exposed male genitals and a bare butt, and Corey, trouper that he was, managed to find the former for his director, and provide the latter himself. Corey also had a lot of screen time talking to the documentary crew about the processes himself. He turned out to be the most visible and memorable member of the Before The Door team, bringing them into the story in a warm and often humorous way. Zach has called him the ‘heart’ of his company (with Neal the ‘mind’ and Zach himself as the ‘face’), and Moosa demonstrated that amply in the course of the film.

He was especially prominent in attempting to both support and direct Shane’s efforts to permit more outside input and  craftsmanship on his movie- including taking corrective notes from Shane’s staff, professional editing, and sitting in on the pre-screenings, but along with Shane’s producing partner Lauren, Corey was repeatedly rebuffed. Shane was determined to pull that load himself, without regard to his own actual competency in those roles. Sadly, that showed up in the finished product, angering Zach so deeply that he removed his and Neal’s name from the credits. Corey’s remained, in a producer role.

On Anna’s side, all three were listed in the credits of her movie. And additionally, her own company, Periods.Films, also showed up in the credits. Her own shortfalls were more along the lines of inexperience and perhaps a little too much insularity- the biggest problem audiences had with her film were the very subtly differentiated female characters (audiences complained that they looked alike) and some uncertainty as to who was narrating the story, and why. Was this Tori’s story? Scotts? Heather’s? I think she did a good job in getting that sorted in the editing and dialogue stages. And sometimes, in the heat of production, a rookie director gets so much input that it requires a fresh set of eyes in the editing bay to see what the audience is going to see in the character design (unlike Shane, she handed that task over to professional editors). We only see what the camera sees, not what the director sees in casting, rehearsal, and between shots. She got to know her actors quite well. We only got to know them on the business end of a TV screen. Unlike Shane, I expect that Anna will learn from her newbie errors, and go on to create many good movies.

But “The Chair” is ultimately about storytelling. And in that, they succeeded. I rarely let ‘appointment television’ cut in to my Saturday outings, but that has been an exception these last few weeks. I’ve had a ton of fun watching the show, and interacting online with the various producers, and Anna and her family. This was an unexpected bonus- another manifestation of the digital porosity of the fourth wall. I watched both films, and voted on them. And next week, we’ll find out who ultimately won. I am hoping that Anna will, but the odds are against that, considering Shane’s sheer numbers of fans. I hope he’ll learn from his experience, and if he wins, uses his winnings to polish his chops. And even if Anna doesn’t win, she’s well on her way to an interesting, and hopefully rewarding career. Female directors are still way too few and far between, and every lady we launch adds additional richness and depth to a popular culture that skews way too far towards young male tastes. I like comic book and superhero movies as much as the next person, but there should be room for other voices as well.

November 2, 2014 at 3:24 pm 2 comments


I miss Halloween. That might sound strange, since we’re right on the verge of it, but for me, Halloween is a relic of the past, of a life I no longer live.


October 30, 2014 at 10:45 am Leave a comment

Seeking Purpose


I like this image- it is an excellent illustration of interactive elements of motivation, and how to live a good life without being dragged down by inertia. That, along with ennui, depression, and boredom are the enemies of purpose, although if you properly utilize their energies in the Current and Pattern, they can be useful.

I’ve always distinguished between profession and vocation: my profession (what I’m paid to do) is messing around with computers and communication technology of all sorts, and my vocation (spiritual calling) consists of my flying under the radar as a quietly practicing 21st Century Mage- the cumulation of all my occult and metaphysical training. I am a TechMage, if you want to get precise.

But what are the elements of my passion and mission? I have a passion for writing and learning, and I love collecting and curating music. I am now in a place where I prefer gaining experiences to accumulating physical things. And as I grow older, those passions are deepening.

My mission? I think I’ve expressed this in becoming the Teacher Who Appears (and Disappears). It’s difficult to pin down- am I a lightbearer? A healer? An awakener? A 21st Century shaman? Some of all of these? I do know that I wasn’t sent here to consume and breed. I am a bundle of incarnated sunlight- an avatar. I came to this place with pre-loaded cues for me to access at a certain age and stage of my life- if I survived to that point. I did- barely. (Avatars aren’t given any physical privilege when they incarnate- they’re subject to the same life hazards as all beings.) But my cues guided me in a different direction from most people. My express disinterest in being DNA- driven was evident from some of my earliest lucid (post age 7) memories. That disinterest and in consumption and breeding only grew as I matured, and continues to be a major driving force in how I live my life today.

These four elements- my profession, vocation, passion and mission answer the four questions:

‘That which I love’ combines my passion and mission: learning, and teaching the Pattern and Current through Light and Sound, and Appearing and Disappearing when necessary.

‘That which the world needs’ combines my mission and vocation: Using my understanding of Current and Pattern as a Mage to bring the awakening Light to others, so they can also apprehend their real purpose, and break free of the traps of consuming and breeding.

‘That which you can be paid for’ combines profession and vocation. Happily, I do get paid for being a techie, and I have a very portable and in-depth skillset. And I am gradually sanding away my distaste for asking for recompense for magic(k)al favors- readings, insights, and the like. I prefer barter in that realm, though. And I do have an idea for a book in my mind, which might bring me a few bucks if I am prudent about how it is published.

‘That which you are good at’: I am a computer whisperer. I can mind-meld with any tech, and fix nearly anything that isn’t broken beyond my means to repair it. And I am an excellent writer and curator- I have accumulated a wonderful treasure chest of experiences, and have good ears, good taste in food, books, and environment (albeit a bit quirky at times- but who cares?), and younger people seem to like me. When someone says they want to be me when they grow up, that’s a high compliment.

Now we are at the Venn center: Purpose. What is my purpose? I am a TechMage with deep experience in both the physical and spiritual realms. I have a tuneable noise filter, and can see through the often-deliberately crafted noise-smog to the kernel of a matter. I can reveal it, understand it, and make it real to those around me. I use my craft and skills to poke people Awake and discern Current and Pattern through light and sound. My professional skills keep me alive, and my vocational skills save lives.

What is your purpose?

June 6, 2014 at 8:44 pm Leave a comment

My Evening with Zachary Quinto

Zachary Quinto

Zachary Quinto

I was out mowing my yard when my friend Lindsay blew up my phone trying to get my attention- did I want to see if I could go to Provincetown and see Zachary at a fund-raising gathering for the local theater group?

I contemplated the price of the KRK-8 near-field monitors, Audio-Technica M50x cans and the workstation desk I was about to get (digital music creation and mixing is my new hobby), and put them on hold. After all, a chance to see the fellow my dad dubbed ‘Ol’ What’s His Ears’ in such a venue didn’t come along often, and I could get the gear any time. (Plus, it might be on sale- I’m anything if thrifty!) Mingling a bit with Zach in the same room? Sure! Sign me up!

I’d just bought the plane tickets when a massive tornado came along and wiped out most of Mayflower and Vilonia. I don’t live there, but I have colleagues that did, and dealing with the aftermath consumed most of my time for the next couple of weeks. So, I didn’t get in on the ZQC plotting of the cards and cake. And when I did finally come up for air, it was nearly time to go, and I hadn’t had my usual pre-travel panic attack yet. I wadded up my courage, and dealt with it. I think the whole crazy thing with the tornado probably depleted my usual Panic Checklist- and wore it out.

I got to MA, met my friend Lindsay, and learned about the alternate universe in Peabody that plotted to make us loop endlessly around on 1 until we chanted the right combination of cuss words, invoked the u-turn god, and bribed the ‘nobody up our butt when we had to make a lane-change goddess’ and finally found our hotel. The next day, I invoked my own mental ‘do not make me barf on the damn ferry’ loop to get across to P-Town.

Provincetown is Santa Cruz East, y’all. The only thing missing was a boardwalk with a big roller coaster and ‘Keep P-Town Weird’ bumper stickers.

But, Zach… He announced his presence by posting some great Instagram photos of where he was staying. Elvis was in the building!


June 3, 2014 at 12:40 pm 1 comment

Moving Day

In the light of all the crazy stuff going on in Russia, I’ve decided to move the contents of my Live Journal (Sunfell’s Earth Walk) to one of my Word Press blogs, “Maid of Words”. That blog is currently private, and will remain so.  I do plan to go through it and post relevant things to this, my public blog.

Before Word Press became the predominant blogging platform for serious bloggers, Live Journal ruled that roost. It had a great run, then Six Apart went and sold it to a Russian company, who promptly did a series of rude and destructive things which forced the majority of Western users to flee the platform. (google Live Journal blackout) to get more details. I kept my own blog there, but stopped keeping it a paid account. Around about that time, Facebook opened their gates to the masses, and put a stake in the heart of blogging as most people know it. Reluctantly, I joined it, because most of my Live Journal friends fled there.

I’ll be up front and say that I hold my nose every time I go to Facebook. It’s another, fancier version of AOL, if you ask me. It’s the internet with training wheels, and worse, nasty little nosy trackers that are all in your business whether you want them to be or not. Worse, the idea of ‘frictionless sharing’ was the rule of the day, and being a generally private person, rubbed me completely wrong. The controls provided by Live Journal, and now, WordPress are much friendlier and more conducive to folks like me who like to actually write, as opposed to dropping slightly longer than usual ‘tweets’ into the walled garden that is Facebook.

Did I mention that I do not like Facebook? Google Plus tried to bag some of Facebook’s teeming masses, but failed miserably. Twitter is a great beacon, and Tumblr belongs to fannish slash-shippers, role-players, and porn slingers. (I have managed to remove the porn from my Tumblr feed, but it took an effort, and I still get hot-dog shots from time to time, mostly from people shopping actor’s heads onto porn star bodies. They quickly get “X”d.) They’re nice, but not really for writers. Live Journal was.

I will miss Live Journal- it was the community of the last decade, full of interesting people, posts, and interaction. For 8 years, I ran a community there called “Dark Christianity”, which closely examined the extreme right of the sect, with a lively group of people that, at its peak, had around 1500 members, and posted about 30 posts a day. I managed to keep it peaceful, with a carefully vetted team of moderators to keep trolls and troublemakers at bay and keep the dialogue flowing. I closed it last year, and deleted it. It was great training for later moderation gigs, including one with Zachary Quinto’s old official site. They’ve since moved to Facebook, where I still monitor and (rarely) moderate, but like LiveJournal, Facebook has taken the lively heart out of that community, too.

I have an old site, built with Front Page (remember that?) that I plan to move here. This site will undergo some major upgrades, and I will get a paid account here. I will move my domain here, too. In a few weeks, I’ll be taking a course with a local educational extension organization that will teach me how to build and maintain sites using WordPress, and the upgrades will commence.

So, stay tuned. I’ll be posting here more often, and posting links to this blog in my old hangouts. I am not concerned with how many readers I have- I’m not selling anything, and don’t need numbers. But what I do enjoy is interaction- real interaction, dialogue, thoughts. If you’re coming here from Live Journal or Facebook, or my old site, you’ve found the right person. I may try to change the title here to Sunfell’s Earth Walk, but not sure if that that will work.

This place will be a construction zone for a while, but bear with me. It’ll be great.


May 6, 2014 at 9:32 am Leave a comment

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